oh

domestic life is nice.

i have yet to find a place for the wedding. though im really leaning on the "princess manor" in greenpoint. it's soooo convienant. plus, it's pretty nice inside too.

it's fall.
i love cardigans.

i'm kinda stress out.

is one of my favorite movies. it's cute, the sound track always throws me into a nostalgic loop.

so i have kittens to give away. i keep hyping it up, but they're not exactly old enough to give away yet. hopefully people will actually take them and not just say they will. but...

aren't they cute? the moms a total jerk though.
im also engaged. weeeeee :)

big party tomorrow. woo hoo.

week 2 of me and the boyfriend living together. went to go shopping for a couch. bought a nice set at jennifer convertibles. too bad it's way too much stuff for such a small space.

it's serious!

the parents cat had SIX kittens! all calico's. not my favorite type of cat, but whatchoo gonna do. we're going to take one and hopefully people we know will take the others. then we really need to spay the cat.

working 7-6 for the past 6 days have worn me out a bit. but it's over and the store looks amazing! and i love the neighborhood. it's so cute!

another week.

the 2nd week at my parents house...it feels so much longer. i finally got a response from the people upstairs. although i didnt get a definite date. apparently, they're waiting for a reference from us, i heard my father speaking to someone on the phone that i think were the people in charge of their new apt.

"they're wery, wery good people." my dad repeated this sentence about 5 times during the entire 2 minute conversation.

oh i cant wait. i cant wait to sleep in a room that's NOT an ice box. the last few frigid days i've been able to see my own breath in the room.

yest. was fun. i think im going to enjoy working in brooklyn. the neighborhood is so cute. the bar where we had the whole job fair was CUTE! i just hope the G wont be a complete bitch when i have to take it there.

i have to say though, this next week prob wont be as fun. there's still a few hurdles to go before i finally can be free.

so i got promoted and im going to the new brooklyn store.

let's see where this goes. im all about brooklyn. i guess i could virtually live my life ONLY in this borough if i choose to. id never have to leave the borough. how strange would that be. i hear the neighborhoods pretty nice. too bad it's going to take more time for me to get there than to get to work now. although the L seems to be more slow than i remember.

ugh...i still have a million reviews to write!

im finally FREE. well almost. this next month's going to be some kind of whacked out memory of last year. being back at the parents again. im stuck sleeping in my brothers old room...by the back of the house. i havnt had a night in it yet, but im about to find out. it's kind of freezing...and creepy.

ive had a lot of pent up aggression stuck inside me for the past year and my fuse is very very short now. almost anything can set me off. i just cant seem to control my temper anymore. i wonder what i can do to get this aggression out. mark says i should join a gym to work it out. yeah...i feel like im going to get into a physical altercation very soon. and it doesnt really scare me either, it almost soothes me to think i might be able to fight it out of me. it's this tightly wound up knot of anger.

i think i just need a change, and im already in that phase of change. it's starting, one more month.

tomorrow, i'll have to confront the people that are renting the apt in my parents house and make sure that they're leaving. i wish my dad wouldnt just told me to tell them in the first place. oh well, it's not like they have a lease with us anyway. one months notice is all they'll need.

oh brooklyn. im back.

i wish i had some life long ambition.
anything.

happy new year.
a few things that i can't wait to happen this year:
1. move back to the hood
2. start my (adult) life
3. push people behind

so i saw i am legend, kind of creepy. another end of the world by zombies of our own making movie. but good.

ugh, i can't believe im still in this apt. just 2 more months and it'll be all over. left behind as if some forgotten dream.

well christmas didnt feel like christmas. then again, when has it as of late? ive had this discussion a few times already.

i spent it at my parents place, watching project runway and survivor man all day. and intervals of playing chinese poker with my cousins. i also had a 2nd dinner with craig at the mexican diner. pretty uneventful day. i am commanded upon to visit the parents at least once a week. they dont seem to understand exactly why i dont know.

well parents, when you basically work oh...i would say 50? hours a week...any spare amount of time, you'd want to only keep to yourself too.

just 2 more months. and then, it could just be another monster of a disaster. who knows right?

at these times, i am still grateful once more to have a solid group of friends to celebrate the holidays, birthdays, and new years with. even though, i feel like our friendships are really just drawn upon these certain events. it's ok, what else are friends for? being there right? and they are "being there" for me, and that's awesomely enough.

wonderful.

my toes will completely fall off, if not, at least my pinky toes will.
i should invest in some shoes that actually give me support seeing as im on my feet at least 10 hrs a day standing and running up and down stairs. oh the life of retail.

i am so excited, in just about 3 months im moving back to my hood. at least these are the plans. i must confirm with the parents. and from then on, it looks like blissful monotony. just me and my boo. it's going to be an adventure for sure.

some things just dont seem real to me. like, engagements, careers, having someone. i think "important" things dont phase me much for some reason. it never seems real, i know it's there but it's hard to grasp. i also know the urgency of it, but i just can't get it. and that kind of worries me.

ive been told more than once that im very cold inside.
like a block of ice.
im chill.

what a shit day,
this is really not worth it.

i havnt had dim sum in yearrrrs. literally, years! maybe dating back to when we went to china and had fake dim sum (yes, how can that be? especially in china? well, it wasnt the same as the dim sum back home). and then before that, dating back to my early teens when we used to go every sunday to chinatown.

i got really excited when we ordered the beef / shrimp things that are wrapped up in some type of white thing. i know, really bad description, but i cant remember the names for them. it was good hearing all the familiar names, the semi familiar ones b/c the names sounded familiar but i couldnt identify what they were. i also had some HAW candies in my bag. hah. it was fun times, with my asian crew in queens.

love and age.

i went to my grandmother's wake today. my mom's mom. i prob should've posted this a week ago, when i was thinking about it a lot more. she looked so different, but i guess anyone would at that point.

all my cousins were there, it was nice seeing everyone all together. everyone's so grown, so strange.

tomorrow's the funeral.

so im watching, well more like listening to what's on my tv, cold case and i start hearing very familiar songs from the mid 90's. marcy's playground - sex & candy, semisonic - closing time, etc and im thinking, wow these were great songs. why are they using this music? so i start watching the show and it's in a series of flashbacks, again i start wondering, why are they using these songs for this type of flashback? in my mind for some reason, the flashback was happening in the 60's when really on the show it's the mid 90's when the characters were in high school.

how did that happen? that's my flashback soundtrack. eck, aging.

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that is all.
wish i was still there...

eh, im actually not even that surprised.
first perfect close of the season, first OUT OF NOWHERE
PERFECT CLOSE
it wasnt actually bad, i mean the time that i left the store (5:00am, roughly) was horrible.
but i really wasn't phased, im not sure if it's b/c im leaving after tomorrow (today) or
if im just completely numb to it.


i finally got promoted and a raise, im trying to figure out if it is suffiient...

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DL885 07SEP DEPARTS LOS ANGELES AT 615P ARRIVES HONOLULU AT 859P
DL1282 14SEP DEPARTS HONOLULU AT 350P ARRIVES ATLANTA AT 626A
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so i went to the parents place today. it's kind of a record that i visited twice within 5 days,
over a span of about 7 months. it was actually nice. i mean the usual guilt trip and all
but it was nice watching chinese soaps with the parents (i think we were watching wong
fei huong, which is so weird because he looks the same and i swear this soap or movie
has been out since the early 80's! that chinese skin!)

i cant wait til i move back home. there's no way about it, im moving back to my neighborhood.
these next 5 months can't go fast enough.

i actually had a weekend this weekend.
went to a themed restaurant off bedford, it had sand on the floor. we wondered how they clean the sand, it seemed like it could get pretty dirty. soriya spilt his wine in the sand. it was pretty bad wine and it's really bad if i say that it's bad wine b/c i never drink.
and text messaging. a lot of texting.
i love strolling around the neighborhood. i love strolling anywhere.
i cant wait til i move back to the old hood. however...who knows how that will workout.
i havnt been home in ages, havnt even given the parents a call in a few weeks now.
i know, im a horrible daughter. what stops me is that, im just scared. at 24 im still
scared of being yelled at by my parents. i guess i'll never out grow it.

i wish i went to a mets game this summer. i know, that was random.

involved me and my 2 bff's

coney island!

a ride we never got to ride, thank's to nicky's fear of heights.

my two favorites.

im amazed that everytime that the 3 of us do get together, nothing ever changes. and that's not a bad thing. it's such a good thing that we can just pick up where we left off, even after months of not talking or seeing each other now that nicky's upstate. they're my friends for life! ever since birth w/ bina and 4th grade with nicky. im pretty amazed at the people we have become.

it's a brooklyn thing.

love.

who would've known that my daily life would consist of babysitting.
all day.
at work
and
at home.
wtf

so good.
sooo good.
i dont think many artists can pull off playing one album each night. then again not all albums are like 'sha sha.' for me, i dont think i could bear standing around for an hour, hour and half listening to only one green day album to it's entirety. 'sha sha' is a really good album, that's all i gotsta say.
too bad it was sooo HOT and SWEATY and at one point, it really smelt like someone shat on themselves.
other pluses of the night, the commemorative 'sha sha' lyric book and also running into sheryl and angela.
i also thought someone else was at the show, but to my disappointment, it wasn't so.



yayyyyyyyyyy.